I was missing for some time. To explain I shall type these words, rag, work and sleep. Should put some food and drawing in that.... Well, at least I don't have rag for awhile.

There. My latest journal update.

Well, Its been over a week since my birthday and I'm just meh, like every other year... I am able to go in bars and stuff, but I don't have a legal photo ID. Would get my drivers, but like for the pass 3 years I was able to obtain it... I'm just lazy...

A week passed, a week being 19. Like every other year I feel more "Seenale" than "I'm himp!". Every morning I eck, going fatter by the week and I'm having the urge to say "In my days" stuff (I'm probably getting influnce by caleb )...

I recently won this gift certificate of $200 for futureshop in my accounting class(which I didn't even know my entry good through because of the stupid computers). So I will buy that laptop when I saved enough money for it.

Yeah, with the whatever the reason was another RO server restarted on us again... Why? I heard that ppl were comeplaining that there were tomany powerful people... Like other servers our guild characters reached lvl 80 and poof theres nomore stuff anymore... Right now some of us are playing the restarted server. For me I'm taking a break now, prob look through other severs that still stay on...

K, now about my art stuff. In time I will get Photoshop and be able to colour my drawings and also while I'm trying to obtain that I prob post some drawings I've alrdy done and maybe somethin new I could draw. I could accept any ideas of drawing anyone would like to see me draw because right now I'm stumped.

Theres my update.

As of now I'm 19 years old.

Not saying I'm excited nor I'm I depress about. I'm just meh...

Sure, I am now able to do more things now, like go to bars, buy cigerates(I no I did't spell that right) or maybe... Ummm thats all I no...

Well, all I see is another year passed by since I lived and I really don't consider this year any different. I don't smoke nor I plan to smoke and drinking by my self in a bar isn't really my kind of fun, unless if it is with my friends having a good time, but I'm only friends with a couple legal aged people that has Jobs and stuff while I'm still in school...

Thats all I'm gonna say and if you wanna wish me a happy birthbay or maybe tell me to die in a ditch than go ahead cuz I'm having the time of my life.

PEACE!

So far My new job is going well and I'm trying to improve my drawings and prob try a demo of photo shop to see have a taste of it untill I would actually get one of my own.

AN 2007 is coming and I'm getting really excited, now when I have the money. But the first thing I would try to do is to obtain a labtop of my own so I could focuss colour my work instead of people interupting me by telling me to get off this computer...

Well thats all I'm gonna say....

Kay, sorry for that last one.... I'm not even gonna bother explaining that now..

The past couple weeks was been interesting. Got a job, finding out I'm surrounded accusive people, seeing old friends as stupid as ever, seeing that a the game that me and my friends play is a waste of time now and having a family feud here.

Well, starting with the job. Yes, I have finally obtain another job and hopefully it won't suck as much as my last two... The good thing about this job is that its not a big place, so I don't have to waste most of my time walking all over the place to get stuff done (Meaning no stupid pagings pulling me back from my duties). The manager is better then the lasts one that I have (Which I recently heard he is now accusing someone for something he done, which that someone could get him fired “hopefully”). The manager is all right to me, but I haven’t really worked with her yet. The job itself is making me nervous, but later like every other job I had it would turn out like a piece of cake to me, like when I cut bread tonight, it surprise the person the was training me saying that I cut the old fashion way in the job… Also, like to add that this job kicks ass on the fact I work with FOOD!!!!

Kay, with my wonderful life in my household I find out that I get accuse a lot… Some how my family (especially my mother) has a mental thought of me doing every thing in this house… My mother seemed to make a list and going down by the names and I’m the one in the bottom and I know I’m ALWAYS the last … Like, someone lost something of hers, so she ask everyone until she gets to me and no matter what I say she’ll end up accusing me by saying, “Oh, everyone else said they didn’t”. NOO! REALLY? I must be the one if everyone says they have nothing to do with the situation or of course they must be “F”IN LYING!!!!! Does it really accrue to her that it might be her fault which most of the time it is! And she’s the kind of person the keeps on going until she’s right and I hate those kind of people…
Recently, a CD of a PC game of mine is lost and so I looked everywhere “THREE TIMES” and when I go to my family and asked where’s my game they go like “You must of moved it” …kay, I might be missing my game, but when I always stop playing games I put the CD in the box with the other CD’s that goes along with it and leave it near this computer in the cupboard along with the pile of games my brothers also have in. In a place that can be excess by anyone and might I add that I looked every possible/unlikely place in this household (Even flipped over my whole room to find it) and I moved it… From the only place its useful… Away the other CD’s it needs to work… I… the person who is the only one in the house that haven’t misplace anything… Something is telling me I’m mentally handicap or something… DUURRR I MAST VEEE!!!! … Honestly I don’t care anymore and I wouldn’t be surprise that they would start blaming me because I’m there I just standing in front of them….

Now, just yesterday I saw a video 10 min after it happened. That Tylor (a friend) recently let himself set on fire… The combination of AXE spray and FIRE!!! And that all I’m gonna say…

Ah, yes rag… A game that we play as a guild to have fun and screwing around and stuff… And now we are just an empty guild…(Understandable with people having jobs and school…) Every time I logged on, I see a very dead guild with one person on a friends file trying to get me to join their stupid guild and people going “ Stop screwing around and level…” Which made me question the purpose on online gaming… “LVLING?” Is not about the fun? I must have been playing a wrong game then… Well, I haven’t been playing it for a while and now thinking of quitting now or maybe play a different server but I don’t wanna wait for hours to download…

A couple weeks ago it was my older brothers birthday… To this great day we all should think about my brother, how he changed our lives with his, all the wonderful things he done and what a great person he is… If that were only true… He always get me on my nerves, he sees that everyone should be like him, he never any cleaning in this household and he is the reason that I never look forward for Christmas…
This day of his born got me on my last nerve… On his birthday our thought be a great idea to start cleaning the house… It’s someone’s birthday and you want the house cleaned… Not tomorrow, today… So, my mother and I were arguing about picking up folded cloths, which aren’t mine (Some how people goes into my room looking for there cloths… yeah WTF). Which I were using the F word a lot cause my mother always trying to be right and then he came down assuming everyone should worship cause its his birthday… He just love to but into my conversations, even it is arguing or simple chatting… He jumps in like its involves him and he want to end the argument with a mommy’s right and Josh’s stupid ploy by telling me to shut up (which he assumes with his great age, I should be threatened) Well no, I told him but out and told him he always buts in when it doesn’t involve him… My brother (doesn’t like be yelled) acts like a baby and tries to inflict physical harm by smacking my head… Kay, all my life I don’t care if he insults my choice of life style, who my friends are and how I go about my life, but if he hits me like he’s superior to me, he thought wrong. So, I Started punching him in the head because of all the times he so disserved. Through the time he said he’s gonna kill me, making me see him as a coward as he truly is. All talk is all he is. Empty threats. After that we were separated and like a tempertantram child that he is started punching the wall and saying “On my birthday”. Oh man I was close in going on a second round after him when he said that. Not a birthday of mine pass by that he never said how bad my life is compare to his… All those times mentioning me of my pass mistakes and telling me year-by-year how successful he is… Right now I just pity him…


Well thx for listening to my rant.